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Tuesday, July 03, 2007, 11:10 PM
happy? father's day
last friday night, my family went out to celebrate father's day. very late? long storyduring the dinner, i was feeling guilty.
the food was good.
but my father was sitting alone, opposite nobody.
while my siblings sat down together and have their own conversation.
isn't today meant to be celebrating father's day?
as usual my father was ignored. not totally, but bad enough.
why?
i bet all my father wants is just to have the family sitting down TOGETHER talking for an hour. he will be much more happy than sitting down in some weird dinner place, eating fabulous food with nobody to talk to.
after dinner, my brother brought us to this karaoke place at hougang cc. condition is quite lousy. song selection was quite poor.
my father sang this song which at one part of the lyrics went :" wo shi yi zhi xiao xiao xiao xiao niao...."
somehow he always miss out one "xiao" and the song is going too fast for him.
it was really funny but i think that he sang brillantly!
way to go dad!
it has been a long time since i hear you singing, you were so brave.
on father's day itself, my mother asked me if i got anything for my father. i did not.
the thing is, all he wants was for me to give him a kiss.
how far have we parted?
we maybe near each other everyday but we don't know each other at all.
he said he don't dare to kiss me anymore now that i have grown up.
this is quite disturbing as it was my fault my father will have this fear.
is it so hard for the two of us to get along?
recently, he told me i smsed him on father's day that i really appreciate him cleaning the house.
when he brought this up, his face was so happy.
it makes me realise how much my little message meant to him.
and how much he loves me.
this post is for my father.
my father who i don't understand.
my father who i wish to embrace when i am sad and need help.
my father who i take granted for time to time.
my father who may be bad-tempered but still decent
my father who deep down, i love deeply.
thank you, daddy.
just so one day i die. this maybe my final letter to him.